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i'm applying for jobs atm, almost anything that i can. not interested in working for the army no matter how enticing the pay is... i don't care that you're taking inexperienced employees satan will not tempt me.
i'm so afraid of it but at the same time i feel like i'm ready. super conflicting. i've had severe anxiety since i was like 13 and i'm only just getting over it now... though i sort of haven't. i'm just better at masking it. i can more or less blend into society -- i even enjoy going out of my way to compliment people -- but it still makes me sick to my stomach. heart hurts. mouth is dry. head is pounding. but i can kind of do it.
either way, i don't have a choice. my disability payment stops soon and i'm doing, for the most part, better. i've got ~7 months to kill before i start uni. i think that's the biggest factor.
i feel really dumb for having social anxiety lol. i'm an adult now, nearly 19, and i get frightened of other people. i feel so childish. i have a lot of understanding acquaintances who always try to encourage me but it can feel antagonising sometimes. they're just trying to help though
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I know what you're feeling, because I'm going through this too and it's a little comforting to know that I'm not the only one, but not in terms of you going through this, I hope you can get through this because you're already trying and it's something to be proud of. (I used a translator because I don't speak English very well :c)
awh this is so sweet !! thank you so much <3 we'll get through this :-) don't worry about your writing the translator did good !
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