are my opinions authentically me

one of my friends got on substack and she's been writing little peices about her life and stuff and it really intrigued me as i tend to share those opinions on different, more closed off, centres of the internet. but the more i thought about it the more i was like, "wait, are my opinions and thoughts anything new or different? are they even things i agree with?"

i've gotten so used to being percieved on the internet (and in general) that everything i do and wear and say feels carefully curated for this projection of myself that i want to publicise. furthermore, i don't think anything i ever have to say about the media i consume is original thought. do i like sharing my book reviews on goodreads? yes, but it has to sound nice incase someone reads it. 

i am not quite sure what my point is right now, i just know that i'm having some form of an identity crisis as i think about whether my interests are things i actually enjoy or just feel like i should because of the internet, my culture, or the patriarchy.