ix. new era

school returns in a few days

my summer break only really lasted a month, i traversed it with intent of fully living every part of it; and i believe i was, for the most part, successful. it's ever curious how the length of a month is constantly fluctuating throughout my life, the notion of something constant in your life and yet it never quite feels the same. i give it neither a negative or positive connotation, it's just something observable, you can feel it happening. isn't that cool?

recent days have been overcome with thoughts about my progress. its like you never really believe you'll make it that far until you realize you're currently living in it, with the past version of you unable to imagine you as they look towards their future. these thoughts and ideas that are clouding my head, it's all sentimental.

one of my first objectives in this new stage of my life is to remodel my room, i believe i'm yet to express this on my blog so i will now: growing up i always felt awe and envy of people with decorated rooms, so personalized and unique, i've never had that. the only personality that my room has sustained up to a year or two ago was the ugly color choices 12 year old me made. seriously, blue and black? i've never had posters to put up, no expression of myself to put forth onto whoever comes across my room.

but i've also never known myself well enough to know what exactly to decorate, i have been lost for a very long time. only recently have i become something out of the years of nothing i've

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but yeah, back to remodeling my room

i got this idea to have my 'dream room' per say for my senior year of highschool. i think it will be a fun little project, no matter how slow it occurs. i just came back from shopping and have acquired the paint, i chose a very nice lavender; this time even if my preference changes, at least the colors are still pretty. purple/lavender has been my favorite color for the past couple of years, it's just so pretty. i plan to get a couple guitar hangers to have my two guitars on display and easy access, and also out of reach from my pesky cats. i would also like to hang my melodica and make sure i have a corner where my harp will soon occupy.

did you know i play the harp? not the common, large, harp with pedals,

but i play the lever harp! pretty similar, only difference being you can't easily change keys or play accidentals as you could if you had pedals. i think it's still cool, one of my most interesting traits from being a musician.

i think i'll place it alongside my piano.

one of the only decorations that is in my room is my small collection of plushies, i just have a plain oak slab working as a shelf for them to sit on. it's not very appealing to look at though so i might either look for more interesting shelving or simply have them occupy my bed.

i also want to split my desk into two - currently i have a desk with the shape of an L, the shorter part being to my left and functioning as my work station for whatever my needs may be, with my computer on the longer part. my issue is that i don't particularly like how the shorter end protrudes towards the center of my room, making it les spacious and a little ugly to view. so preferably i'd like to transition it to two desks, likely side-by-side against the wall which should take up less space and look more pleasing x>

with the upcoming busy school schedule, i will be far more inactive than i have already become here, but i do wish to revisit occasionally.

honestly, i'm really happy i manage to make at least 1 good friend on this website, it's been fun.

oh oh ! i also want like a cabinet or something purely for the display of my collection of sunglasses. they're so cool!! 

anywho,

that's all

"so i won't stumble as i follow down this path

cause words that are spoken are just other things to have

and love you have given in your lifetimes gives you back

i hope i remember, to believe that"

Window - Nana Grizol

thank you for reading <3

-tent 

1:38 PM

8.10.25