i think i hate some of you

i think I've never been this upset over anything before. not for so long, anyways. I'm happy, my life is good, and I'm very blessed. but that's all thanks to my family, not to anyone else. and if you betray me again, I'm going to make sure you're never happy, not a single day of your miserable life. but you're on thin ice, struggling to stay afloat but at least you're TRYING, as for her, she simply drowned and then got out of the water like being there never meant anything to her. And y'know what? she can go for all i care. but she better not come back, or I'll drown her with my own hands until she's blue. 

there's nothing i can do about these feelings anymore. sorry, should've been good to me in the first place. i am not a forgiver. 

the fact that i still talk to you at least proves how hard I'm trying.