Apathy

I am free to do anything I want, yet I desire nothing.
-Habitual mind-dulling consumption of media. Not in the least a desire, just a compulsion to keep me occupied
-The sights I hiked to - underwhelming. I'm not sure the bug bites and calluses were worth it
-The few books I've read - I had to use all my might not to lose interest

I'm not sure what drives others to do the things they do: relationships, parties, friends. You could tell me they are possessed and I'd believe it.