Sunday, May 11th, 2025

I FEEL LIKE I SAY THIS A LOT.. BUT.. A LOT HAS CHANGED.. A LOT HAS HAPPENED..

I think i will start by recounting the things that happened since i last updated this blog. Soooo, I finally got a job in the field i studied! i love it so far. everyone i work with are so nice buuut i feel like i could never make a real connection with them. You see... they are different from me in a lot of ways.. they have a more suburban type of lifestyle & mentality.. which i do not. uhh, just their type of humor, which i thrive from, is not like mine. I still have a lot of fun at my new job. im trying to get my bf & family to schedule appointments so i can do their exams! i think that would be fun to do. especially on my bf. I feel like its best for my loved ones to come by once my trial period is over. i started my new job on the 24th of april. My trial period lasts 90 days & will end around late july. I guess i can wait that long. itd be worth it if it means doing my loved ones' exams plus a discount! But anyway, im really enjoying this job. hoping to get certified in 6 months. hell yea.

Recently our household (me, bf, & his family) had a family meeting. Before, my MIL had just gotten back from out of town for my GIL doctors appointments, so she looked exhausted. soo.. we all sat down at the dinning room table, waiting for the meeting to start. once everyone came, my FIL said what the meeting was all about. He said he has been cheating on my MIL for 9 months with a lady he met on tiktiok battle. For a little more context, both my MIL & FIL were leaders of this tiktok group. & in that group was that lady plus other random people from the internet. turns out most of the people in their tiktok group knew my FIL was cheating on my MIL with one of their group members. Everyone kept it a secret from my MIL for months. My FIL was planning a FAMILY trip to go help one of the people that knew he was cheating. ok sooo... we all had a talk about his cheating. of course everyone was crying & just wanting to know why he did it & why for so long & why he didnt break up with the lady sooner. so many questions, so little answers. mind you, most of his kids are still KIDS & to have a conversation on why their dad was cheating on their mom will do tremendous damage. It has done tremendous damage already & it hasnt even been a week of finding out. more on that later.. BUT ANYWAY just about everyone was getting on his ass, as expected. All he was saying was some sorry ass excuses. I remember asking him why he didnt cut it off sooner. I had asked if he just got used to it, since he was talking to her every single night. He said yes & i IMMIDIETLY said "you got used to deceiving your WIFE?". this mf said, "not necessarily". likeee what?? thats what it sounds like man. The whole thing was just crazy. my bf asked to talk to his dad outside. they were out there for about 45 minutes. my bf later reveals he was gonna fight his dad outside. so stupid. i hate how their dad is putting them through so much & FOR NOTHING. that same night my FIL & MIL still slept in the same bed... what was the point in exposing him infront of the whole family & then turning around to just forgive him for LITERALLY HAVING SEX WITH ANOTHER WOMAN (conext; even thought hes been cheating fror 9mo, hes only met up with her in person once, in cali. said he was going to a memorial but he was lying. he was actually meeting up with his little gf to have sex). why make it a big deal if hes just gonna get forgiven by the person.

My laptop is dying so i will post this  update may's timeline later on. i still have lots to talk about & get off my chest.

AUGUST 08, 2025

just now got back onto my laptop. I seriously forgot what else i was gooing to say. Anyway.. time for a new blog entry.