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I am Slade. I am 33. Nonbinary, submissive and polyamorous.
I want to share alittle today about how lucky I am. When I was younger (around 16) I was in a relationship with a dom. I was also in a relationship with her friend. I did not relise at the time that I was poly. I just in my head saw them as two different relationships. One was my mistress, the other was my gf.
After that ended I remained mono. I went through life with one gf at the time. And I always thought something was wrong with me. Everytime I was in a relationship I would start to grow feelings for another person. I thought I was a shit person, gross, that there was something wrong with me. Society shoves down our throat growing up that relationships are between a man a woman and to get babies.
That if you grow feelings for another that it means you love the one your with less. That you are a heartless and your relationship is ruined. Thing is...looking back at those years where I was in a relationship and had feelings with another. I never loved the one I was with any less. Hell usually I wound up loving them even more so.
Alittle over 4 years ago I met creation. She told me she was polyamorous and had a husband. We hit it off immediately. Over the next year we talked and I relised that what I have been feeling over the years was not wrong. It's just how I'm wired. I learned about better communication skills, dealing with emotions and jealousy. I learned that everything that media throws at us is not the only way the world works. And that I have been poly my whole life, but I just had no representation. No way of knowing it was a thing I could even be.
Over the years I picked some bad partners, and it was not always smooth sailing. I made mistakes. It is alot of new and alot of different. I still make mistakes and have issues. The thing is. We communicate, we talk and we fix things. And I am so happy. I came out to her about my like of corssdressing. Me being submissive, and all the other weirdness there is about me. And she has loved and accepted me the whole time.
After several shitty relationships during these last couple of years. I met another amasing woman. It's hard to explain the pure joy I got when I met creation. When me and her talked almost 24 hours straight, then met the next day and it just worked. Everything we did just meshed perfectly together. I had never had that before, and to be honest I doubt many people have.
So when I say that I am lucky. Know this. I mean that. Because I have had that now twice in my life. I have had two women walk into my life, and I am never letting go of them. Lauraine came into my life and we hit it off just as fast. It's actually so hard to put it into words how much of a tornado of feelings these two women give me on a daily basis.
To be so loved and pushed to do the things I love. Is...its incredible. The support I get from me putting on skirts to them holding my hands and helping me learn I'm nonbinary, to me pushing my art, my streaming, content creation and more. I have no words.
This has become so rambly I know and I'm sorry. But it is truly impossible to put into words the effect that Creationharmony and Lauraine have had on my life. The love that I feel, the support, care, acceptance, drive and just so much more.
I love you creationharmony.
I love you Lauraine.
I always have, I always will.
Words will never do what I feel every day twords you both. It is just not possible.
You both are the reason I wake up everyday, why I push myself, why I try and do better, why I love as strongly as I do. Why I am comfortable in my own skin, why I fight for what I believe in, why I push so hard in my art, and so much more.
There is not a aspect of my life that is not better because I have you both there.
Yall are my world
My loves
My drive
My passion
My desire
My everything
And most importantly
My muses.
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Lauranie
I love all of you more than words can express. You amaze me more and more every day.I am beyond lucky to have you and creation in my life.
I am so so lucky! I love you with all my heart! both of you!! *cuddles*
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Creation Harmony
You have made my life better since the day we met. You have helped me come out of the shell I have always hid myself in so much more than you will ever realize. I love you so much more than the words here can ever say. I love you more than I can ever hope to show you.
It has been such an honor seeing you grow and become the amasing woman you are today! I am so proud of you and everything you have done! I love you with all my heart *pounces*
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