lowk surprised at how ive gotten this far

ive been reflecting on and off over the day on how ive managed to get this far in life (see my previous blog post for parts of that)

i remember when i was like 13 i was pretty fucked up and going down the wrong rabbitholes (ill spare the details, i dont feel like putting TWs right now), but by some miracle of God i pulled myself out and ever so slowly started to turn back towards God

roughly 4 years later, i have a decent social life, some hobbies i can be proud of, a (growing) relationship with God, and visions for a future. have i been perfect in that journey? hell no. have i screwed up? yes, but i have a lot more hope in myself now than i did years ago. to quote a kanye west freestyle, "from the bottom, so the top's the only place to go now" — i cant look back on who i was then, i just gotta keep growing from my prior mistakes.

on another note — the rosary is especially powerful; its what helped me get out of the hellhole i was in, so i cant recommend it enough to those who may be going through something similar