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So I have ADHD very badly. I can't ever sit still, I am always making noise, my brain never shuts off.
It does what I call a galaxy brain. And I am going to try my best to explain what it is like going through this.
My brain travels faster then yours. The problem is. The navigation system is fucked up. So while we may race from point A to point B, and I am faster. Most of the time you will make it there before I do. The problem is, my brain can't do point A to point B.
My brain starts at point A and sees point B in the distance. It then remembers something similar to point B and heads to point Z. When it gets there it remembers a similar thing to point Z which then leads it to point F...but it does not make it there because it just got distracted by point 7. From point 7 it has a choice...does it go to point L(cause it looks like an upside down 7) point SEVEN, point VII or does it take a sharp turn and go elsewhere and sees where it takes it.
This is my logic. This is my brain. It jumps around and bounces around like a ball in a pinball game until a high score is achieved and it makes it to point B. Or until it inevitably looses sight of point B entirely and misses the flippers keeping the thought in the game. Only to be replaced with a new ball with a new objective.
ADHD is rough some days. I will sit here with friends and those I love. My brain going a million miles a minute and I forget that others can't see the threads that tie my thoughts together. They can't see all of the twists, turns and jumps that it took to get this thought out of my mouth before I even have time to control it.
We will sit there...dead silent for minutes and my mouth will blurt out. "What do you think it would look like if the weinermobile plowed into the back of a truck?" Or something equally random. And all because of a beginning thought placed in my head about a panda or something.
This post probably makes next to no sense. I know this. But I wanted to attempt to put into written words what it's like. Even just for 30 seconds. What it's like to be trapped in my head.
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Lauranie
The fact that your brain goes through all of that and you still absolutely make perfect sense most of the time says alot about how crazy smart you are. Communication can be challenging but you're surrounded by stubborn people that are more than willing to work through it.
It takes alot to keep on target. It's also years of practice of going with the threads to get to those goals I am trying to. I think its a big problem my memory is as bad as it is though. Most people can just think back on a memory...but my brain bounced around a million times to create that memory to begin with. So it kind of has to retrace those steps to get back to that point.
I am very lucky to have amasing people in my life. Those that take a chance and let my brain work the way it does. Those that are accepting and patient as fuck with me *giggles*
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My brain just tosses info away all willy nilly. Short term, long term... no ryhme or reason. Ive noticed the info it retains is much more emotion based though. I tend to remember feelings over facts or statistics.
I think you do amazing with what you have to go up against.
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