peaks and troughs of singing in the beginning of august

The oscillating-self boomerangs once more.

Often, when I walk my dog, I wear headphones and sing out loud. In a way, it's an exposure therapy of sorts. I really like singing, but I'm incredibly anxious about being heard. The mathematics to circumvent that is if I do not see anyone who can hear me, then there is no one who can hear me, so I sing as loud as I can to match pitch and tone and intensity as the singer in my ears.

This would prompt me to sing, what I believe to be, relatively loud. Audible if you were within 20 feet of me (quickly attenuating, of course).

I write today to say that I am in the part of the oscillation where I am less comfortable with belting song lyrics on my walk. I don't know why. The vibes changed, the songs and how I interpret and feel about them changed. Regardless, I try to sing like how I usually do; however, my patience and interest in the songs are... "off". Anyway, I hope to be more interested and enthusiastic about this on my walks again. It's harder to sing certain types of songs in certain environments because of acoustics, so I've felt a bit restrained lately.

Any who, today you can listen to: Marry Me by Nightmare of You.

1 August 2025 (3:51 PM)