3-5-21

today was a weird day. I woke up around 5am and did some chores until I fell back asleep around 10am again. woke up at 2 and just felt weird. Does that make any sense? I drank water thinking maybe I was dehydrated but that did nothing, smoke a cig to see if it was that. no ate some food. made me feel WORSE. I feel like I've gotten to the point in my life shift were i feel out of place? my dreams are haunting and I constantly feel out of place; like I don't belong in the body I am in. Is this due to a life change or a medication change (or lack there of I should say) I cleaned my space to try and feel some sort of normalcy but now I have to worry about moving the stuff from my old apartment into my room. it shouldn't be hard because I know i can ask for help but I don't know how to ask for help. I need to get some of this furniture I don't want out so I can fit the stuff I do want into my room to make myself feel more at peace.