i grow jealous of everyone else

im surrounded by love, my friends have boyfriends and girlfriends and partners, while i sit here, alone. i’ve been alone for a while now. it could be my looks, i would hope not but, it may be. it drives me crazy, and makes me a sobbing mess at night. ever since my ex ghosted me after coming out as trans i have felt i am worthless to others.. and that seems to prove itself as time goes on. i don’t have anyone like other people do, i only have myself.

i can only hope that things get better for myself, and i find someone to care for and who cares for me.