just yesterday, south of LA

I'm sorry. i'm sorry that i think so much, and I'm sorry dad for liking my head up in the clouds. sorry mom, too. for being me.

bang the doldrums, huh? ex friends till the end. I guess it was always a prophecy after all. you're wrong. (after all). so silly how you can listen to the aame song and give it a complete new meaning. my life is so good lately, honestly. i love music. i love listening to music, i love singing, i love love love feeling and the things you can transmit through music. i want to do it, too.  i will do it. for it is fated. 

those were love letters in my own way. a goodbye. a closure. my closure. that's why despite my faith in your vision of our friendship, deep inside, I always knew. Ex friends till the end. So many songs about goodbyes. I always knew what you'd do. I just didn't want to see it. There's no one as blind as someone who doesn't want to see at all, I guess. I liked being your friend.

Just yesterday north of LA... foreshadowing insane? Though I'm south of LA....I think. I should probably see that right now. Yeah, definitely South, lol. that's funny though. How many things align but are also opposites. Fuck, it hit. Sorry, gotta go to sleep now. I'm starting to get scared. mcr...the concerts.....it was all.....so good... and it...freed me....from you.