Parents have returned

Date: 29 july 2025 

So my parents are back from their vacation. I can hear them now arguing with my brother, who btw has been ruining my sleep lately. It's not directly his fault but also kinda is, my parents have been calling several times during the morning when I'm sleeping in to ask me to wake up my brother. His boss is calling him and them asking where he is. And idk what to do, and neither does my parents, he just ignores his boss until he eventually gets fired. Then he gets a new job and does the exact same thing again. 

This morning my parents called me to wake him up, I was sleeping when they called btw. Went like this: I try waking him, he says he'll get up, I go back to bed. Some hours later I get up, aaaand he's asleep again. I try waking him again, eventually he sits up, says he feels dizzy. I leave him alone, give him some time to call his boss, our parents, or just try and leave the sofa. Check in on him 5 min later, aaaand he's asleep again, I give up. 

Later when he's up he brings a bunch of dishes from the living room to the kitchen, I tell him "The dishwasher is empty" so that he'll put it in, he says "I know". I return 2 hours later aaand he still hasn't done it, yk what he's doing? Sleeping. 

Not to mention how I have to worry when he drinks, the other day for example. I asked if he had drank he said no, a lie. He said "you don't care", I said "abt what?", "you just don't care in general". Idk why he says these hurtful things I do so much for him that he doesn't even know. I've defended him, I've cleaned up after him, I'm extra quiet when he's around cs I know he's sensitive to noices, I ask him if I can get him anything when he's feeling sick, I make him coffee if he wants me to, would he ever do any of these things for me? I don't think so. He was so loud in the kitchen a while back, mom asked if he could be a bit quiter, he goes "no one tries to be more quiet when I want them to, so why should I?" I DO? I don't think he ever notices when someone does something for him.

Anyway I wanna talk abt the good things too but I'm just so tired from the bad ones that it's all I can think abt when writing here. Atleast now that our parents are back there will be some structure at home. 

- Elliot