dear friends!!!

it's been so long since I've been active here! i definitely will be more so very soon, if anyone was checking in. so much in my life has changed. I'm nineteen years old now. I believe i was fifteen or sixteen when I started my account. there are a lot of beautiful strangers on this website! more so than ever. i'd love to talk to anyone. i love the internet being used as it should be. I have so much to share, but for now, i will just share the moment I am in right now.

on the gray carpet of my bedroom floor, wound with my stitches out almost healed on my left knee from falling on rocks scrambling out of my childhood creek, new glasses frames sliding off my nose and big green pixies t shirt falling off my shoulder, new music in my ears. i found out about the band teethe today, and I'm excited for their upcoming album. i'm hungry. i ate a big jar of coffee and oats and frozen mixed berries and honey and lavender tea and leftover pasta today. i had the weekend home alone with my older sister. a good friend who recently sent me the most beautiful and kind letter is coming to stay tomorrow night, I'm so excited. i need to clean my room. i want to cover it in warm white christmas lights. 

i'm burning two candles right now, one my nana gave me, a tall dark green pine candle set in a pottery tray, and one almost all burned out that smells like lemons and productivity. my oil diffuser is also going, triple scent combo, with eucalyptus and peppermint and lemongrass. after I finish typing this, i'll fold my clothes and prepare for my morning shift tomorrow as a custodian before i have a beautiful rest of my day in good company. if it doesn't rain, i'll use remaining firewood from a camping trip in my backyard.

i've been looking at flip phones. the poison evil evil evil of smartphones is finally starting to really get to me, and I'm at a point in time where enough life is eagerly waiting for me outside of it, there's always something i could or should be doing. and as summer wanes my impending uptick in responsibilities makes me want to ensure that my free time will be spent well. i want to get up to see every morning. i want to go rollerskate at the park by the beach. 

thank you to whoever just digested a little piece of my life. that's objectively a cringe sentence to type but i'm hoping to bare my soul a little more and i think cringe is just a part of anything if we really wanna get into that. exposure therapy so i become less ashamed of who i am.

my future posts i hope to be more advice-oriented, sharing things i learn rather than just pieces of my life, though if i story-build it's sure to be intertwined with that

i have a diary to record more ordinary and routine things

goodbye for now my friend!