Internet Diary 42#

I’m finally gonna admit that i’m not just asexual, I always had been aromatic and for the longest time I tried to deny it because it made me feel like it was distancing me from being seen as normal way more then I technically already am.

My friends understand me and i made the full on realization to not hide anymore while i was talking to them about my romantic attraction that never existed.

Back then when ever i would try to tell my father this he always said that it’ll take time for me to find the right person 

And I really just don’t like that

I don’t feel comfortable being in a romantic relationship, it feels like it only makes me more unhappy because I have to force myself to actually be happy and fully in loved with the person when i’m in a romantic relationship. 

Anyways 

That’s me coming out as aroace

Today I realized how long I felt uncomfortable with my body and gender. 

I was 13 or possibly 12 when I first started to question my gender, all I know was that I was in 7th grade at the time.

I specifically remember talking to a person who was in my class about it, she told me that I was trans because that was what I explained to them about how I felt about my gender identity at the time.

I definitely felt uncomfortable with my body way longer than when I first started to question my gender identity.

I remember one time when I was like in 4th grade where I made a dumb excuse as to why I felt wrong about a specific part of my body. 

Anyways that’s enough yapping for today

Real quick though 

I feel like their might be some confusion on why I actively label myself as genderqueer instead of trans

The only reason why I label myself as genderqueer is because I think it fits me more because I am not seen as masculine and that challenges what I am deep inside.

I’m gonna end this Internet Diary now ( ^ω^ )