experience

why does it always trigger me when i meet someone on one of those 'bmf' posts or 'i want my person' ones, and we talk (or dont at all as i wait for them to respond or wtv) and later i see them matching with someone already. or something like that. it throws me into this moment where i just cry or get angry and already close the dm because idk. recently its been eating at me i dont have any friends to talk to or to play games with, but i do but i dont. maybe im still grieving the loss of my best friend from 2020-2023, where i played everything and talked to them about everything. maybe im just look for them in every person so when it doesnt click at first i immediately know it wont work out. idk i want to just end it sometime too.