i feel like my life is on max tick speed

it's 1:38. i'm gonna try on some clothes, try and pick outfits. oh shit 2 outfits in and its 2:43?!?!?

ok this is one example but oh my GOD i've been dissociating a lot lately.

is it even dissociating? aren't you supposed to like. teleport? and everyone says i have no sense of time but i'm also not diagnosed with anything so its whatever

hahahhahahahah i can't do anything i like!!!!!!!!!!!!! black holes in my memory!!!!!!!!!!!!!! no time for anything at all!!!!!!

but i think i'm feeling my average which is general life-sucky-ness. at least it's average.

i'm trying not to think about that too much.

and maybe that's why this is happening.