lies

I'm a liar just like you. except everyone knows you're a liar and no one is aware how bad of a liar i am too. i guess that's a secret I'll keep to myself, unlike you. My lie may become annoying...but I'll stand by it. I really didn't expect you to be so shitty, man. Sometimes I miss you, but I guess I remember the past version of you, who you used to be. Was my love enough to change you completely? No, honestly, you were always a shitty friend. I was just too blind to see it. We had good moments too, and honestly, I miss them. But the bad moments were so shitty too. I always wondered if you actually hated me. But sometimes I didn't have thoughts like that. Ugh. You're so confusing. But it doesn't matter now. We probably won't be talking again. Guess my friendship was enough for you to want to protect it or something. I just wanted your friendship, honestly. I didn't want it to end. But if it happened, it might've been for the best. 

I wish things were different.