music

So i decided, well shit i've been listening to the same music for years. plus i need to get rid of music associated with my time with my ex (not necessarily out of repulsion, but to move on). so imma listen to new music. 

so i gave blur a listen. at first it was good shit but when i got to the album with their namesake i was like shit... some of this sounds familiar. 

it was on my ex's playlist, and i just didnt know the names of the songs when i had heard them before. 

so then i was like hmmm maybe i should listen to nirvana cuz theyre popular and ive always wanted to listen to them but i never got a chance. 

or so i thought. 

i already knew every single song. 

what am i supposed to listen to now, mcr? thats like the only thing they hated. 

dammit babygirl you done ruined all the good music. 

also my sister hates nirvana but she went and got a tshirt. like wtf. 

being blocked is lwk liberating. 

still so many things i wish i'd said, so many times i wish i stood up for myself. i wonder what all my old friends think of me now. i still lose sleep over all the times i humiliated myself. all the times fighting would have been so much more comforting than shutting up. or maybe being lonely is making me delusional. 

sorry to turn that into a traumadump any good music recs anyone?