for a minute there, i lost myself

i just realized you haven't been seeing my stories anymore. funny though, you watched them all the two weeks that YOU didn't talk to me, and now suddenly it's you who's retreating? funny. i wonder since when. I've been too busy and occupied, and just like i expected, i haven't been thinking much about you. i guess i just remembered because your icon used to be the first one to pop-up, and i kust thought it's funny how now that we're distanced you didn't appear. Turns out you haven't been watching them at all. Well, whatever. Honestly, I think I already grieved everything, I already grieved our friendship, and I think I've already let it go. 

I wonder if you even care or honestly, what are you thinking. but hey, if you're not watching my stories anymore, maybe you'll actually have the guts to abandon me this time? 

You can't hurt me anymore. You already took my heart with you. But I can always grow a new one. One that no longer belongs to you. 

And honestly? This trip comes at the right time. I don't care what happens between us anymore. You suck as a friend. You showed me that more than once, but I always forgave you. 

Not anymore.