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i've been thinking about killing myself recently

it's a thought that's been with me for a few weeks now

sadly it's becoming more of a consideration with every passing day

therapy has been helping it really has

but i only see my therapist once every two weeks because of money constraints

and i think the lack of support for that amount of time is like torture

if i'm at work i get anxiety

if i'm off work i get anxiety

if i'm at home i get anxiety

if i'm with friends i get anxiety

if i get a single moment of piece and quiet i want to die

because of all the stupid decisions i've taken

because of the life that i ruined

i want back

i regret my choice

forgive me

i want back

otherwise

just kill me