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My psychologist said I had Anxiety she just looked at me honestly I was in this group to get tested for autism I hated it there every time new people the games we played where loud it was dirty and the table stood every time somewhere else. She said it was Anxiety. I want to talk about me here just to see if people relate to me.
I am scared of my parents what if they hide cameras everywhere to spy on me they wait and when they see something I did wrong they are gonna yell and punish me.
Everything is a test my glasses probably aren't even real glasses they just want to test me if I'm lying my diagnosis is probably wrong too they just wanna test me.
They can read my mind probably all people can read my mind.
When I go out people will probably film me and put it on the Internet to make fun of me.
I looked at a little boy the child of friends of my parents what if I'm a pedophile now? Don't know I felt nothing but what if I am one now?
I don't think some of these things are true my parents are really nice and loving people but the voice in the back of my mind keeps telling me these things I feel like I can't take it anymore I can't trust anybody. I think I Have a bit of Anxiety yeah but also I couldn't care less what people think of me though I don't think I can trust anybody.
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Ascarius
Yeah,i get it. Especially the part of going out and people filming you, these day's most people can't take their hand's off these phone's, which i found weird most of the time since i feel some weird discomfort everytime i try to use it either outside or inside and many people do it all the time! So yeah back to where i was is that i notice quite a lot of time's in real life and in movies that every time that there something happening or someone standing out in the crowd, huge majority of people just take their phones out and start filming like it's some tiktok short(or whatever i am horrible with analogies). Like someone is totally feeling bad but everyone is filming, i just do not get it why would people do it, where's humanity and respect of other's at? This is actually on of the reasons i'm quite afraid to dress the way i like because i know that most majority of people take me for a weirdo and might start filming. I have actually recently watched a video on "drama kween" channel about people filming strangers.