it doesn’t stop for you

hello [whoever’s left]

moving in 2 weeks. it’s a doozy. remember when i would write things? remember warmth on your back and the sound of the ocean? remember the sweetness? i nailed it to the wall. it’s just a photo. 

it’s crazy what fixing your brain up a little does to you. i might as well have been dead by now if it wasn’t for that decision. i keep saying that. i keep saying that. i keep saying that

my job? sure. managing a [chain stationery store] sure pays the bills (it doesn’t). i’m so ready! [throw it at me already]!

made gnocchi tomato soup tonight. it was good. gosh, it’s already 12.

you are not my god

but you’re the closest you can be

you’re all i want to be

see you in my dream

beneath me

above me 

just so out of reach

it hurts until it stings

it stings until it’s sweet

syrup, thicker than water

patiently waiting 

patiently, patiently

patiently, patiently

i pray for you each night 

to grow your hair and size

i wear you like a charm

keep you close 

so you’re warm