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I genuinely don't want to live anymore I am chronically ill and it just feels like I played my life through no real cure 10 undiagnosed illnesses and every test answer is it could be there it could also be not and I just want to be dead but not die I am scared of dying like what if it huts I am not scared what happens after I am not scared of death and I couldn't care less what the people around me would think but also I wanna hurt myself and its strange I am scared of the pain bit I also feel like I deserve it
on the other hand I also have these swings everything feels bad and down and like I can't live anymore but suddenly I Feel like I can do everything I can solve every problem I feel like the most Intelligent person on earth I can do anything
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Linda
I totally relate to the desire to be dead, but not the process of dying. I wont tell you to stay here for your loved ones or to give your situation time because thats bullshit that only those who enjoy being alive say. But what helps me to make feel a little better atleast is to weite down the lyrics of Songs I like for some reason. You dont have to think much About wgat youre doing rn so your brain has a little break. And who doesnt like listening to their favorite songs?