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So my ppl when ever someone ask my hobby or interest, well I do reply and say few shows, mangas and bands but the truth is having one is the only goal of my life.

similarly I love places like space hey and had been finding smt like this for years now that I am in this community I see that everyone has so many fav bands, and shows they have watched or so many different skills they have and all the creative hobbies and I feel a bit sad or agitated 

cause I cants . WHY I CANT HAVE INTEREST?  ...My mom

Arts: 

I love arts and all mediums of it, digital , painting, watercolor everything and love to see anyone who does it online and at school. but I know I can never do it 

cause my mum teared all my artwork in 7th grade and ever since then I have never touched arts supplies 

MUSIC: 

She says it's bad in my religion but the HeLl everyone listens to it!

VIDEO GAMES: 

She doesn't let me play she took my PC away and now it's broken in our storeroom. and I love games . come one let me play valornat and Cs go! I just love them so so much.

EMBROIDERY:

Man is it not great to create texture, soft things on fabric from thread -- Well guess what I can't know cause she took away my threads

CROSHET:

same story love the products it can make but I can't cause she won't buy me wool!!

SPORTS:

I love volleyball and other sports but she doesn't allow me to play , every year we have this huge fight before my school tournaments 

COOKING: 

well she ALWAYS complains that I don't know how to cook but doesn't let me cook! nor does teach me . she says she is not going to teach me anything 

EDITING:

well it requires to have a device and her blood boils when I have a decide in my hands! I really like cool edits 

MAKEUP AND FOLLOWING ASETHETIC:

she says bad girls do it and makes me wanna be a child , I gave no problems with that I don't like looking older and I am a bit childlish but ALL I CAN WEAR KS WHAT SHE SAYS ( I don't really have problem with it but she can at least buy clothes according to my liking of colours and patterns)

SHOWS/MOVIES/ANIME:

simply CANT.

there is more but I guess it's fine for now.

bye bye~~~

here also have flowers who ever is reading this

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fun fact : those reading here will go to heaven(⁠◕⁠ᴗ⁠◕⁠✿⁠)