GUYS WHERE ARE THE FILIPINO BADDIES ATTT I NEED FILIPINO FRIENDS

nothing against everyone else

I just..wanna meet more filipino people

ESP MFS WHO CAN SPEAK MY DIALECT LIKE HELLOOOO

its hard enough finding filipino people my age irl who can even speak something other than English BUT ITS USUAULLY Tagalog like FUCK

I dont speak tagalog unfortunately  bisdak foreverrrr 😝😝😝

didnt grow up hearing unless it was on the tv and we was watching show time in the  'pinas

BUUUUUUT

ya Im bisaya so.

WHICH REMINDS ME

tw: creepy ass dude creeping on minor. not too like explicit.. just putting it out there. its Roblox bruh. 

I was hanging out in this bum ass filipino Roblox hangout game. but everything was in tagalog and I was walking around tryna loosely guess what everything said.

but APPARENTLY IT ALL RELATED TO HEART BREAK

and as an aromantic person I just wanted to roll over and GAG  BUUUUUT curiosity and loneliness pushed me onward sooo I went around seeking my filipino peers

NOBODY REALLY APPROACHED ME

I mean a few did but whatever I gave up EXCEPT THIS ONE DUDE AND HIS FRIEND

tell me why this grown ass 19 yr old was TRYNA FLIRT W/ME A 17 YEAR OLD

(oh wait now I see the irony of me mentioning that given my previous blog. BUT HEY IT DOESN'T MATTER CUZ IM MENTIONING IUT LMAO)

like I was tryna just like find a friend who can hopefully speak like me

BUUUUUT he found me and thought my accent was cute. I DIDNT EVEN KNOW I HAD LIKE AN AUDIBLE ACCENT tbh. not like an American one tho, I know fo sho I can pronounce stuff pretty well

I WASN'T aware I had a bisaya one OR I DIDNT THINK IT WAS THAT OBVIOUS

like IM NOT around tagalog speakers to be noticing a difference ig

idk other than their intonation can sound a bit harsher at times  than my moms

BUT THE THING IS

NATURALLY MY VOICE IS HIGH (dysphoria. I fucking hate it)

and I get told I sound like a CHILD all the fucking time. so anytime a guy would gravitate towards me on Roblox..id be thinking one outta two things yknow..yknow

but like.. I DIDNT KNOW WHAT TO FUCKING SAY cuz he caught me on the spot, AND LIKE we were SPEAKING so I cant just hide behind a profile and walk away silently. ( I MEAN I DID..I tried he just kept following me bruh so I just stuck where I was)

I guess part of me wanted to seee where the fuck he was going with it and I was booooreeed soooooo.

the whole time he was tryna flirt with me  on a fucking ferris wheel with his 'wingman' playing romantic music in the back goring 

LIKE COME ONNNNNNNNNN MANNNN!!!!

he kept using these  CHEESY ASS ONELINERS  and I  kept listening to ado going "uh huh. uh huh..yeah..sure,"

finally left the Ferraris wheel and went to look at a lil bakery across the street. UNFORNTUNATELY all the shit was fake and u couldn't even USE it because the bum ass baker had something mushy to say about heart break

nothing I could understand tho without busting a blood vessel using my himbo Brain.. ANYWAYS

he was like:

🐵<: "yknow..I have a baby."

and me being totally naive, and caught off guard by this was like. "wait..really? SERIOUSLY?" :>🙀

🐒<: "yeah..but I left it at home.."

and here I was sitting there thinking--so this guys a baby daddy..and he out here tryna get with me? A LIL ASS 17 YR OLD MANN WTF.

 either way morbid curiosity still motivated me onwards. 

"wait so--wheres the mother?!":>😟

🙊<: "she was no mother,"  

*in the spacebar, in the middle of the  typing about to press send ➡ [ "aww that really sucks --"]

🐵<: "do you want to know her name?"

"sure..." :>🧐 

I started picturing a name in my head---hmm Delilah? Marie..? FUCKING KRISNEY?? WHO KNOWS filipino names are kinda unpredictable there can be a million options--

"it's toadwaddle. 

(not my real user)

🙈<: "its you." 

".." :>😶

I cant even fin the fucking audio for this. so just imagine that one video where it sounds like the universe came full circle in the worst way possible. and ur floating there in space like

"oh...."

"shit."

MANNNNN  FUCK THIS GUY 

I WAS SO PISSED OFF BECAUSE HIS FRIEND WAS THERE DOING HIS LIL DANCE EMOTE HOLDING UP A BOOM BOX  📻 PLAYING MUSIC 🎶  LIKE HE WAS DOING SOMETHING

WHILE "🐵" whips out a PIXELATED ROSE 🌹 

🐵🤙🏽 🥀 "toad..will you be my baby?"

(again not my user)

(in a fake ass bitchy tone) "mmmmmmmmmmm....yeah..no..no... NOPE.." 𓁹‿𓁹 

and he said: "awwhhh.. array ko!!" AND THAT I understood--it means gahh! ouch!

the whole time im just standing there watching this grown ass man with a imperceivable frown on my little Roblox character's face.

first all I got misgendered in the way ive always  hated. didnt know it then but now im fully aware of it.

I FUCKING HATE getting put on the spot and guys be acting like they did smm, like they think im just some naive girl who doesn't see their OBVIOUS PLOY LIKE FUCK OUTTA HERE BRO

and because im aro..and I aware of his feelings I have to be the one responsible with how to deal with it? LIKE BRO

UGHHHHHHHHHh UGH YGVH UGH YOU MAKE ME SICKKKK IN MORE |WAYS THEN ONE

and then again ive mentioned several times IM IN HIGHSCHOOL, THIS IS MY SUMMER BREAK, I was a JUNIOR, IM SEVENTEEENN, I SOUND LIKE A BABYY

and he still went after me

and to have his bitch ass friend just standing there silently supporting him with his dumb ass boombox and stereo is ANNOYING

UGHHH WORST PART IS when I finally made up some lousy ass excuse about going to bed because it was 3 am for him and it was 3pm for me, HE THOUGHT I lived in Philippines or smm.

I left the game, and joined another game. (albeit another hangout server..but this time for lonely people..💔)

and guess what? BITCH ASS FOLLOWED ME.

hOW IDK EVEN KNOW 

he said. "why did you lie to me?"

and im like "nigga monkey, WHAT ARE YOU DOING HERE?"

and he says "I was stalking your profile and joined you." WHAAAAAAATTTTTTTTTTT

o0kay tbh im a bit flattered, like stalking ME? MUAH? STILL WHAT THE FUCK MAN.

and It was just my luck I was playing a small game with a small server that he so happened to have joined.

luckily we just stopped talking a couple minutes later and I guess he left

but either way it was weird and creepy. especially because moments before he left some kid was like venting or sm shit, and like whats wrong daddada..im hear for you.. adadada.. I MEAN HE SAID THEY WERE his friend either way it was odd

meh

I got super off track but hopefully this'll reel in pinoy fine shyts