Old MySpace Blog Entry 2

from summer 2006

So here I am at the computer again, this old computer making me mad again, I don't know why I put up with this stupid computer, no I do know why, it's because it's the only computer I have access to, and without access to the outside world, I feel just like a bird in a cage, only not the caged bird that sings but the caged bird that is silenced.  That is how I always was.  I could leave the cage of my so-called home, well I never had a home, not really, not with the disollution of the family in modern so-called society, You call this society? I see no society in "popular media." I see no society there, I never saw society there, I saw the morals hidden in ancient long-forgotten lore when I was what this so-called society called a child, and I opened the dusty volumes and read of the worlds within and they were never just stories to me, never just stories, they were real, they were more real than anything I had ever seen and anything I had ever felt, and I read them over and over and never wanted to leave the worlds I found within those pages, because in those pages no one ever laughed because of my outward appearance or my natural tendency towards shyness, in those worlds no one cared for outward  appearances: They looked within my outer shell.

All of us surround ourselves with some sort of shell, all of us are deluding others and deluding ourselves, I think it's time for this to stop, I think it's time to break down the walls, I think it's time for hate to stop, I think it's time to stop cutting people down, I think it's time to build them up...