A silly lil vent !! tw: disappointing father figure

My dad needs to clock out of life. There, I said it.

He's in the house, always has been. In a way, I should be grateful. Some people never met their fathers or don't have them in their lives anymore. He doesn't physically hurt me, but he's violent. To my mother, who honestly should've been a single and child free woman who went to law school and owned a pet monkey. Maybe he's right and that's just nature. It's only "right" for him to be angry. He's lonely and whatnot.

But why does she owe you anything? You can't play victim and act like a savior to us when you're the real reason she hurt us in the beginning. You can't cry wolf over and over again, expecting us to side with you. You were never what she needed nor what I should've looked up to. In a way, I hate both of you. Neither of you are good, but one of you is worse because of what another did. You bring up her past, but the second she brings up yours, you're mad enough to smash things? It's pathetic.

You should've left last December. Or back in August. You should keep your threats as promises when you abandon us, and stay gone. I get that you've been hurt, but so have I. I'm not a saint, but I'm not drunk or on the streets like you. Why couldn't you just be clean? Aren't we supposed to be kids? We couldn't grow up properly because you couldn't just stay clean. I'm so pissed that we ever took care of you. That's your job. Why were we parents to you? Can't you be a dad?

I don't even want to call him a father. He's just a body lingering in the house. Just someone I know. A ghost of someone alive. How dare he even be in my veins. At least mom actually got better. She hurts us all, but she didn't do half the crap he did. Don't get me wrong, I'll never regard her as someone loving, but she didn't try to fool us. She let us pick a side and stayed strong no matter what he threw. She shouldn't have to be, and that ghost is the blueprint of what not to turn into. What lies to not fall for. What men shouldn't be. 

I wish he would've just left with Sabrina.

ANYWAYYYYYYY I had to pick out a cute layout because this one was a little personal and depressing! Hope y'all don't mind :3

If anyone reading actually cares and wants more of the gossip, let me know because the story is LONG. If anyone can relate, I'm sorry. I hope you've healed or are working towards that. Lastly, if my dad were to somehow ever find this, take the hint and leave you coke obsessed asshat!! •ᴗ•