i thought you thought of me better

I really thought we were friends. that's what hurts i guess. You just dissappear like if nothing and then pretend me to act like everything's fine? i told you what I'd understand if you didn't say anything. And I'm not bothering you. I really am not. I hate you. I hate how you reacted and what a shitty friend you were. You had already stabbed my back, but when I gave you my heart you didn't even have the guts to stab me again? You're a spineless coward. I'd understand if you don't love me. I never expected you to do. But you had to go and ghost me? We were best friends. We were supposed to have a bond. I would've understood anything. You could have told me you didn't wanna talk for a while and that would've been okay. I know you don't care about me at all now. I miss the good times but I guess that's all just a memory now because you're too much of a coward to say anything at all. 

I guess it was my own mistake for trusting you in the first place. And I guess the tattoo really did become true in the end. I wonder what you'll do to it. It was your first. I lowkey don't even care anymore though. Even if you erase it, I won't. I'll carry the wound with me, forever, for I am not a fucking coward like you. 

I really thought you cared for me as a friend. But oh, how wrong I was.