left side and left out!!!!

idk

i couldnt detatch from the friendgroup bc theyre really all i have and love

but for some reason i feel left out with the ones who are my classmates

idk theres 4 of them in a corner of the room (by alphabetical order, they have close last names)
and i have a last name in the "B"

so im at front

and i do know ppl there

just not well enough to be someone paired with

i feel like such a floater friend

fuck

i hate my life

i could get through class without those stupid fucking pair assignments

those should be banned

i hate this

everyones taken one way or another

its not like im not close with them

its just that im not exactly their first choice when it comes to picking someone