Sigh

When someone's being unreasonably nice to me and that part of my brain dubs them a liar or a manipulator. Trying make sure I generally keep my distance still. I consider it my a toxic trait. I just keep it in my mind, that people aren't interested in how I'm doing, just what I'm doing. Man I'm so hungry rn.

I'm doing better about not over explaining myself to people cause it doesn't even matter no more. Like why bother? I think why I never reached out to people about my own issues is because I saw it as a waste of time and it'd only make my slight ick more taxing. Also I saw the relationship as not that deep and not worth holding up anyway so yk. 

It rained again, I had a nice lil nap and woke up to thunder! Real nice actually. I like yapping here, I don't like to tell people about my issues unless I specifically ask for advice or comfort. Usually I'm just yapping for a quick release. Also I had to update a character on my profile. His references were messy, and I used a painty(?) style so he ended up getting kinda white washed. I just edited the art that was made of him, didn't feel like reaching out because it seemed like a hassle, plus I hear some people just get blocked when they try and bring it up. I'm absolutely being avoidant, and I don't care most of the time.