about closeness

people have different forms of intimacy, how they enjoy it or how they crave it, how they loathe it to how they need it. humans are social creatures, we thrive better with company, even with those who believe they are solitary. is it selfish to want to be everyone's friend? everyone's someone? i wish i knew more, to connect more, to be more. there can only be so much of me to share with them. there's so much of me they could take, too. i wouldn't mind it, if they bit off more they could chew. as long as i leave a lingering warmth in their stomach, a fond memory, wouldn't that make me someone good enough? there are so many hands i wish to hold in life, but i only have two. passing and letting go, guilt festers in me like one big snowball. (╥﹏╥)

i'd be forgiven, right? being selfish isn't being cruel, if i had been giving myself all my life. just once, i hope, that everyone will understand~

i'm going on a trip, i'll continue hoping for a better day to come. (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶)