decisions. varying stakes.

quick question!! how are you supposed to make decisions about your life???????? just in general.   I'm interested in EVERYTHING and for years I have been haunted by Sylvia Plath's fig analogy.  Every time I make a decision I take a different possibility away from myself.  It causes such a perfect paralysis that by delaying any decision making I am also taking away possibilities from myself! yay me!  I feel so cheated that I can't become everything that beckons me.  What a cruel sick joke to have a love of art and science and literature and music and nature but only have as long as ONE life time to not only decide what is actually worth my time, but to then try and pursue those things.  I know that anything i devote my time to i could become something.  but splitting my free moments between 20 different hobbies gets me nowhere.  I understand there's value in doing things just to do them, and enjoy doing them, and to make myself feel good, but I want to WORK on something and sink into a project or research and see improvement in myself and push myself.  I don't know.  I feel like I finally have the space in my life to DO something, but I can't decide what.  ramble over. for now