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Date: 5 july 2025
I have been feeling pretty down lately, been feeling lonely, tired and sad. I never have energy to do anything, I used to do more. A couple of months ago I was making all sorts of plans, now I'm just laying in bed, doing nothing. It's depressing, not "relaxing" like my mom likes to call it, I don't feel "rested" after laying in bed all day. I hate this.
I've also been thinking a lot abt how ppl view me and how I view myself, and I've come to the conclusion that I don't think I like myself that much. I'm not particularly good at anything, I'm not particularly good-looking, not particularly smart, I'm average at school and average in social skills. I don't really stand out in any way. Not trying to sound super down but I mean it's all true, and apparently "truth" is all that matters. I'm not really that good at being trans either I've been told.
So Idk I'm gonna try and up my antidepressants before school starts. I'm not sure what I'm gonna do in the meantime but I'll keep trying to do stuff even tho it usually falls apart. What also sucks is I don't have anyone I can talk to abt this, I don't want to bother others with my shit.
- Elliot
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frozen_penguin
i dont really know what to say except that i think ur actually a pretty cool person! i love reading ur blogs everytime u post, infact this might be the only blog that i actually follow and post replies on. and also its okay being average, u still have so many more years to find smth that is unique to you and even if u dont find it ITS OKAY ITS GONNA BE OKAY BROSKI :DDD and whoever told u that ur not good at being trans either needs to shut the fuck up they stupid asf DONT LISTEN TO THESE STUPID PPL ELLIOT u are a really good person and a really cool guy!! i hope ur therapist or psychologist ups ur anti-depressants like u want them to! and remember im always there to listen to u! u dont burden somebody by sharing ur feeling with them! my IMs are always and ALWAYS open for you! <333 i hope you get better soon :3
Damn that's actually really nice. Thanks for that, I mean I'll prolly feel better with time but I guess it's just a rough patch right now and I appreciate ur encouragement (if that's how u spell that word). U seem pretty cool too yk, u got a really nice profile and all
by Elliot; ; Report
we all need encouragement sometimes!! its okay to ask for help or wanting someone to listen to you :D (as long as the other person is okay with it) THANK YOU i still need to code it to make it mobile friendly ;-;
by frozen_penguin; ; Report
I'm always on my computer so I hadn't noticed anything but from here it looks cool
by Elliot; ; Report
Archer27
Have you read The Bell Jar? Your profile says your favorite book is The Catcher in the Rye; well, you might find it similar. It's about a young woman coming to find her place in the world, and it could be relatable. That, or try rereading the part in Catcher where Holden goes to his old teacher's apartment at the end of the book. I always find the speech he gives Holden inspirational.
Thats actually perfectly timed, cs I was gonna go buy a new book to read this week. I'll definitely try and get my hands on that book, thanks.
by Elliot; ; Report