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He is my greatest muse, he is why I wear these shirts and like these songs and movies, he is why I know how to tie my shoes and carry a knife with me. He's in my art, my writings, my ideas, he'd be my star actor.
I don't want to ask if he feels the same way, but it really doesn't feel like it, but I want it more than anything.
It appears I've followed the golden rule without notice, and now I want him to love me the way I love him. The problem is I recognize I lack any reason to be worshipped.
Like, he's literally good at everything and his ideas are creative and beautiful and he knows so much about street smarts and history and he's so naturally photogenic and charismatic. I can't compete with that I'm not even allowed to race he's far too out of my league.
I can't sing, I can't act, I'd make a terrible model, and I'd make a terrible partner in crime. So as much as I want to be his muse, I doubt I'll ever be worth his blessed gaze.
It's whatever, I'll just keep worshipping him, it's kind of all I'm good for :P
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radioactivehearttt✰
omg is that Julie on ur pfp??
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Ideally I'd be, like, a voice actor in whatever animation he makes or side character inspo in whatever game he programs. But like, that's still a rather tall order :P