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"There's no way it can get worse"

that's the same thought I've had every morning for about the last month. Every day I check the news and am almost always proven wrong. Donald Trump has somehow managed to not only build a concentration camp in Florida, publicly state that the new democratically elected mayor of New York should be arrested and deported, and sign a bill that strip millions of food and healthcare while giving a tax break to the billionaires, but he has managed to erode the rule of law and give unchecked power to the executive branch of the government. Everything I learned in school about the government and how it's a complex system is being proven wrong. The government has failed, the system of check and balances has failed, every elected official has failed. They've all failed because a rich orange man walked in with a cult of personality and essentially lied his way into office. There are still people that believe he is fighting for the working class. There are people that will blindly follow him to the end of the earth. I can only hope he kicks the bucket sometime soon, but the damage is done already.

I could talk about how it's effecting Americans already, but I won't. There are enough resources out there talking about the wider implications and consequences of this lunatic holding office. Instead I'm gonna talk about my personal experience in this. Is that selfish? yeah, but it's my blog and I've been spiraling for the last couple of hours.

There's a chance my college roommate isn't coming back for the next year. It's only a chance but there is talks of him getting the hell out of dodge and studying in Canada instead. Without him it'll just be me and 2 strangers in the dorm. I know in the scope of everything that's so incredibly minor, but i guess i was looking forward to it more than i thought i was. Probably just a side effect of losing a fair share of people over the last year and not wanting to let go of any more. If he leaves I'm happy for him. At least someone could make it out.

I am so tired of waking up and seeing whatever new hell has taken place. Why did the country have to go to shit. It's almost like everyday Trump looks at the nation on fire and thinks to himself "hmmm, how can I do something even worse that will make the people forget about the last terrible thing I've done". The "Big Beautiful Bill" passed to distract everyone from the US meddling in Iran which was to distract everyone from the military being sent into Los Angeles to help ICE agents act as a secret police and disappear people. I am just so tired of living through historical events. Can we please just have a couple of boring years where nothing of note happens? I just can't keep up with it all, at least not enough to process it and give it the proper thoughtfulness and respect it deserves. Yeah that's selfish and a fucking insult to everyone dealing with all this stuff in a far more firsthand context, and for that I apologize. But i just want to be a kid in college. I don't want to be politically conscious and worrying about how the nation is crumbling, but I have to. If I don't there's a good chance I die. Oh well, what else are you gonna do I guess.

The Man Who Sold The World - David Bowie