summer

Lately, I've been rotting in my room pretty much everyday.

I don't like summer.

I like summer break, not summer itself. I hate sweating and the concept of summer. All my friends live far from me and I'm mostly bored. For three years, I swear, summer has been the most depressing season. And as cliché as it sounds, fortunately I have ptv.

Why am I writing this ? I don't know, I just feel like Pete Wentz writing on his live journal maybe.

Have you read it ? God damn it's depressing but also funny and gay. Yeah.

My goal is to keep something from this summer since I'm always on my computer and never writing in a paper diary, which always ends up being a random doodle sketchbook. Will I ever do something with my life ? (I'm NOT fourteen with self-diagnosed depression okay. But I'm actually wondering.)

Is it because I haven't slept much lately ? For days I've been drawing until 5am freaking petekey and band related stuff (it's on my instagram which is linked on my profile btw) and listening to Infinity On High + midwest emo.

pathetic, really

Oh, maybe life's worth living, I'm cutting my hair tomorrow (waaaaar is ooooveeeer)

But Ao3 severs went down earlier today how am I even gonna survive this ?  ｡°(°¯᷄◠¯᷅°)°｡

(fic recommendation: A Splitting Of the Mind.) ((mcr)).

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okay will I be able to write stuff here everyday all summer ? a true mystery

anyways, byeヾ(＾ ∇ ＾).