growing up or growing out

So recently, I started feeling that my current friend group is not it right now. Like, I constantly feel excluded (not on purpose) and lowkey they're starting to get toxic, getting involved with other people's drama. I love them, but they're not exactly the crowd that I want during my formative years yk??? Like I'd lean on them for support and let them lean on me back when they need it, but something about their attitudes are not clicking with me anymore like how we used to in Grade 8 you know??

It was like halfway through Grade 9 that it felt kinda weird you know, but it's not like I had any other friendgroup to run off too, and no way am I making any of my friends floaters/backburner friends. 

I have a lot of friends, like I could talk to them about freaky shit then deep talks in the same breath, but I'm only in one solid friendgroup. It feels weird trying to separate from my normal recess/lunch group to hang out with another group.

This coming Grade 10, I do have a friendgroup I've been vying to enter ever since I hung out in their section, and most of my other friends are in there too, so why not? I need to broaden my horizons anyway, it's not like we'll always be that group forever, like, steadily I mean.

I really love them, individually. Not really as a group.