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it felt nice to pretend I didn't want to die anymore. that there was really a purpose. that the world isn't going to end. that the lollipop dropped to the floor can still be used. that butterflies really were beautiful. that randomness can win you the lottery. that i really stood a chance with you. im so awful stupid. how was i really pretending you liked me. how could i be so naive. but that's on me