The Golden Eclipse

What is love and how does someone show & feel it? I've been asking myself that question in my dreams for awhile now as I awaken for my nap. I roll out the bed with those on my mind wondering why I've been dreaming the same dream in ever nap until the presence of my bunnies start to cloud my judgment making me feel like everything will be okay. As I walked on the cool rugged floor, I noticed a bright golden glow for the window. At first, I thought that it was the sun until the hue got brighter than usual. I peak through the blinds to see until I went unconscious. Eventually, I woke up and opened my eyes into a place of where beauty grows. From the golden sun that shines brighter than jewelry to the majestic pearly white lilies that grows around me, I felt like I was in heaven. I stand up and observe the surroundings of vibrant flowers and precious butterflies until I see a shadow figure, a person I believe. By this point, I thought I had blacked out and started dreaming about my usual dreams until the figure stepped out and became present. It was a man of tall stature, beautiful vibrant skin, and he has the smell of love and hope. I stood in awe as the butterflies started to flock to him as they was his muse, I didn't understand anything at this point, but I knew that I was truly in the place of beauty. Eventually the figure reaches out and touches me, now before you wonder, the moment he touched me, I felt so happy and loved that I could die, so much so that I think I did. I blacked out again, but this time, I remembered him. His body, his presence, and his touch left a mark on my life that made me feel understood and welcomed. Now I awaken again, but this time I was in my ex room. No one was there nor a sound can be heard which was shocking to me, but I knew that this wasn't where I wanted to be. As I walked through the cool crisp air of his home, my body begins to grow a sense of uncomfortabilitly. The figure returns by slowly hugging me from behind and sealing my fate with a kiss on my shoulder, I stood there in cried while my heart screamed of joy and my body broke through the uncomfortable. I knew that now I have to meet this figure that blessed my soul with its presence. As I turned around to see, it started to leave. I asked to see them and ran towards them before they faded away until I woke up again. Back in my bed, back to reality. No more golden shine, no more feeling love and welcomed from a sheer presence. I begin to feel confused yet sad because I knew that I wasn't going to get that experience again. I laid back down and wondered what if he showed me who he was, or why I went to ex home. At this point, I don't know anything anymore, but I begin to cry because that love I felt was the love I've been searching for, now it's the love I've lost.