We are on the tail end of a Sun & Jupiter Cazimi with Pluto also in retrograde. 

Look at me using big ass astrology terms and words! Over the past two months I've had a lot of spiritual growth. I have fully been embraced into my local hoodoo community and my mentor is also doing great things to help me. I missed the peak hours yesterday morning, but when I got home, I took me a spiritual bath, soaked in different herbs and things that matched the energy this week, and then set up my candle with herbs, oils, and offerings to the goddess Oya who is present at this time. I do feel warm, relaxed, I had a great breakthrough with my ancestors by the way. 

Before I get into some journal work, let's get our usual check in out of the way. Job? Tiring, but Im getting through it. Life? Steady, but blossoming with new things and creative opportunity. Drumming? Could use some work, I have accepted that I don't have energy to practice during the week so I will have to be a weekend warrior, I'm hoping my classes don't get canceled again tho, this is week three of that happening, ouchies. Social life? It's okay, but drained due to my job being boring as hell and all of us hating each other. I get burned out from socializing lately but hopefully some rest and a new paycheck in my account will lift my spirits. I tend to get down in the dumps when my funds are low...that shit lowkey affects my health, I gotta talk to my therapist about it. Mental Health? It's pretty good actually, I had a break down at the beginning of the month because of some racist shit that happened to me, but I felt what I needed to feel, journaled about it like I'm doing now ( maybe one day ill make that post public.) and took care of myself. My meds are working! It's a big win that I found something that finally works, again my brain is a bit under stimulate because of the repetitive days but I'm still here with a roof over my head and I just ate delicious grits my mom made this morning. Relationship? She's good, she's moving out on her own with some of our friends soon so she will be further away from me but I realize that this is what she needs an that we will always keep in touch with our love, she needed this opportunity so I'm accepting that. Anything else? I wish I had a switch 2, that would be lovely, gaming all summer reminds me of when I was younger, I want to do that again. Those were the days. I think I'll also archive my Tumblr account since ive moved on here now. 

If a general life update was what you are here for you can stop reading at this point :) Thats all I have to say on that but now? Begins the deep journaling a mentor told me to do so I'll give it a try here. 

Deep breath in......Deep breath out. 

The first question is asking me to asses my aura and what color I think it would be and why? I once took one of those online quiz's from a quirky company that said my aura is a mint blue color an to that I somewhat agree! I am level headed most of the time, pop off only on occasion brother. I try not to overreact although, at times I do. But I do think I have a very cool and chill energy about me but like...winter chill, I can be icy sometimes. But honestly, I feel like my aura can shift, sometimes I feel like its orange, when I'm doing something I enjoy or an confident, other times I feel like its gold, those times where I feel like I'm unstoppable and I can do anything and the world aligns with me. Is there a color for that? mint blue, mixed with orange and gold? I'm sure there's a color like that. I'll look it up after this and add the name of it as a comment under this entry. 

The next one asks me if I feel like I'm in a safe space, I am. I have a home, I have a community at work that I sometimes get along with. I think the only thing I wish I could change is me coming out to my father, I've already came out to my mother and she accepted it but I just wish it wasnt so awkward when the girl I love comes over and we have to be in private. Maybe one day that will change but part of me feels like he already knows I'm pansexual. It also asks me what some of my favorite safe spaces are, my room of course, and this is weird, but there's a little shopping center by my house, its called like shops at windsong, and I know its sounds strange but hear me out. It's a great early stop on my way to work every morning, so I remember when I was really stressed sometime I'd pull over there in the parking lot near the burger place thats closed now and meditate, Id also imagine I'm enjoying a fat ass burger and fries, MOOYAH COME BACK I LOVE YOU. I need to establish other safe spaces I'm realizing...damn. 

The next one asks, what traditions I am evolving for my self and my lineage, Hoodoo is probably the most easiest answer, since I started practicing ive felt more connected with my ancestors and my South Carolina roots. Practicing is exciting! I like feeling the herbs and resources in my hands while doing it, I love seeing the candle dance I have when I'm doing work, and I love to read about more and more Orisha's as I learn more about it. I've also got a lot of hoodoo books coming this week to learn, as well as learning from my mentor. I want to get two altars here soon but I need more reading. Ya know, Im against having a Kidd right now but if I did have one? I'd pass it down to them. The only thing I have now is my dog, ( I guess I can put some conjuring oil on his forehead and say ASHAY! Maybe he'd understand. ) 

The last one asks me how has my emotional intelligence evolved over the last 5 years. A LOT. I went through covid and two ugly trump presidencies. fuck that guy btw. So it caused me in the beginning to be very selfish, burned out, strained, I was trying to fit so many aspirations in that I was blocking out people who I wanted to to love and see. Living on my own in Boston sent me into a deep depression, I was suicidal for awhile. One breakup later I found myself in therapy. Tiffany is a lifesaver helping me forgive myself for past events that I blamed on myself for years. She helped me understand who I am and why love is an interesting ride for me. Hell she was the one who put me in contact with my hoodoo mentor. Im so thankful for her, I wish I had the funds to see her every week. Maybe since I paid everything off I can see her again like that, I was truly at my best when I could do that. One get back together after and I'm doing better, got diagnosed with pretty severe ADHD at the beginning of the year an it makes so much sense for the symptoms I have that I could never really name. Starting medication was the best thing for me but sometimes I wonder am I gonna be on this forever? All in all, I'm starting to navigate my mid twenties as best as I can, at least as best as I think I can. Only time will tell, we will see what it's like when I become famous. 

The last question asks what is my revolution. 

I think it's a combination of saying yes more, not caring what people think, planning and budgeting, not beating myself up for not having the same progress as others, understanding I work long ass 10 hour days, its normal if I don't feel like doing shit when I get home or on weekends, also following sparks of inspiration and jumping up to do them when I have energy. 

My brain is super empty now and I'm running out of things to say. I also gotta take a shit so I'll make this part quick. I'm learning to love myself and learning to love my transformations. Success is in my reach and its in yours too, lets try out best together, trust our instincts! Take care. Love ya.