No more bestie

About a few weeks ago, I had to cut ties with my best friend of almost 6 years. Ngl, it killed me. Still kind of is. It’s one thing to lose a friend over a fight or anything else, but to lose it over a boy? It’s actually tragic. I miss her, so much. She was supposed to be my maid of honor. We moved to America together because we didn’t want to separate. But she gets a boyfriend and I got pushed to the bottom of the pedestal like in chopped liver. I know she still loves me, I still love her. But love doesn’t equal putting up with disrespect, and I’ve had to learn that twice the past year. I’ll be okay, but I have to put that wall up. I’m very hurt and disappointed, but not surprised. I saw this coming and braced for impact, but lord it’s so hard. This year has been a test so far and it’s like every month is a harder chapter. But maybe it’s necessary. Sighhhh fuck my stupid Baka life :(