nightmare

have u ever felt like u're getting used to something, and becoming more relaxed bout it? but when u're faced with the situation, u realize that u're still the same old u. still a fool who can't do anything.

maybe i'm in that situation, feeling afraid of humans, lol. suddenly i want to do a lot of good things, cuz when my death comes there's nothing else i can hold on to besides that. i don't know which way to go, can someone show me, so i don't keep getting lost in the dark?