Realization

So, this month I turned 20. Yesterday, I got my driver's license. Pretty big and exicting things happening. My mom gave me the car keys to drive myself to work this morning since I work a 7am shift. As I was driving, I switched the radio station and the song 'If You Love Her' by Forest Blakk started playing. I enjoy that song very much, I'll link it if y'all wanna listen to it. (It's a really good song)

If You Love Her - Forest Blakk

Anyway, so as I'm driving up the empty street, listening to the song, being alone in the car, my life as it is just hits me. I'm a 20 year old who is in college and drives with a steady job right now.

Honestly, little me wouldn't believe my life as it is right now.

When I was little, I didn't plan anything. Hell I wanted to be a famous YouTube growing up. I never planned to go to college either, I only decided to go after my grandpa passed away my Jr year of high school. Did I know what I wanted to do? Kinda, I kept floating between going for law and English. Now im going for middle school english/language arts. 

It's kinda werid how life is sometimes. Late at night I usually find myself replying memories in my head wondering how life would be different if I did something else. Guess the butterfly effect really hits me. It's werid to think how I'd be a different person if I haven't chosen the choices I have.

Going back to this morning, everything really felt different, as if I fully got a taste of being an adult. I also really like driving by myself, once I get a car I see myself taking rides frequently. 

I had more I wanted to write earlier in the day but I ended up falling asleep, so I'll leave this post here. Thanks for reading, see ya!