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I could treat you so well, I would treat you better then anyone. But it wasn't meant to be.
Your smiles are aimed at her, never me. She barely shows love but if it was me you'd never feel that. I would love you with my whole soul, body, you already have my heart.
I toss in bed, unable to sleep knowing she has a piece of your heart that i'll never have. She will always have that love you gave and I never will.
Maybe I'm overthinking, but you will never look at me in that way will you?
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The comparison is killing me slowly, trying to figure out why you chose her. Maybe I think to much. I'm happy for you both, but then again I'm not. I want to be her so bad and I don't even know her, I want him more then I want the day to begin so I can talk to him again and again.
I'm jealous of every girl that's had the opportunity to be close to you. I'm convinced they don't understand just how lucky they were.
I would kill to be yours, I would do quite literally anything. I want to worship the ground you walk on, to me you are the world. You're the lighter to my cigarette, you unknowingly make my desire worse and worse.
I don't want anything much from you, I'm happy to be able just to graze my eyes on you. I love you're eyes, if I get lost anywhere they'd be the place I'd want to be. Your smile is the most gorgeous thing I've ever laid my eyes upon. You're imperfectly perfect in my eyes.
I'm falling harder and harder as you drift farther and farther into her. Maybe one day you'll feel the same but until then I'll watch from a distance. I wish I was her, but I wish for your happiness more. All I want in my life is for you to be smiling and feel loved, and if its from her and not me.
Ill be okay with that.
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Ikaros
When it comes to love, that’s how it is — sometimes you can give someone your time, show interest in them, help them, even sacrifice everything. Unfortunately, love is an emotion, and emotions are illogical and subjective. You might give someone more than someone else does, you might be better, more attractive than the other person — and yet, they will still love someone else.
The younger a person is, the more they care about looks, they see things less objectively, and often end up with someone very wrong and get hurt... Even nowadays, looks seem to matter more and more.
But sometimes what you feel might not be love at all, but obsession hiding behind what seems like intense love. Another problem is that people often don’t love the real person — they fall in love with the idea of their ideal partner and project that onto someone they’re attracted to. It’s always good to ask yourself: how well do I actually know this person? Do they really act kindly and genuinely, or is the person I’m in love with just a fantasy I’ve created in my head?
It often happens that people in a relationship realize the one they loved is no longer there — but the truth is, that person never was.
I hope you get through this. In time, it will pass, and you’ll find someone you can love even more — and who will love you back just the same.