#41 - ROYAL PRIDE

Sometimes it is easy to wonder why one should do the right thing, or if such a thing even exists to begin with. The funny thing about life is its point is technically subjective, but it is still possible to live an unfulfilling life. That is because the point is to stand proud before death.

Every sin I commit is written in a record under my name... The pride of my forefathers... The Raja. When I remember this, I cannot bear for a second to tarnish my honor. But the hard part is remembering this...

Even when others hate me, it is my duty to show kindness. Even when I'm in sorrow, it is my duty to be disciplined. No matter what, it is my duty to make the choices which I can look back on and be proud of before death, it is the only way to love oneself.

Do not stoop to others' level. Surpass them. Guide them. Be a shining light of hope. Everyone has hidden wounds, and they try to cope through their pain with hatred... But show them it doesn't have to be this way. That they too can find peace.

Perhaps I'm naïve, but I'd like to think that nobody is "too far gone". That everyone can be redeemed if they so choose. It's just that some people never realize it, but perhaps showing love to others even in hardship will illuminate their benighted hearts... To show the frightened that such is possible.

Even if I were to die alone... Even if nobody were to care about me, or remember me in the slightest... I can die happy if I die with my pride intact. Knowing that I stood proud against all odds. That I have the honor of a true Raja. I may rest in peace with after living such a life.

I am not perfect, there will be times in which I have a lapse of judgement, but it is important to make sure that your vices do not consume you, that this is not the norm. Be kind, forgiving, and loving to yourself too... How you treat others is often a projection of how you treat yourself.

All I have to do is remember and live by it. I pray that my path be one of inspiration. If you are ever frightened by the trials and tribulations of life, just remember that...

NIHIL EST SINE RATIONE