Life lowkey whimsical but i feel bad abt it

Im writing this because every-time i have the time of my life i get flooded by my intense knowledge of injustices and impending doom and it brings a form of guilt. I know that as a 16 year old i really cant do much other than speak out when im able and that not everything is solely on me, but it just irks me that there are so many terrible things going on and no one cares. And i've got no one to talk about it with most times (mostly because i prefer to talk about such things in person rather than over text) so i sometimes feel very isolated. I feel so so strongly about what has been happening in Palestine, i've been outspoken about for over two years, and i have only watched peoples lives get worse and worse as time went on. Ive watched less and less people care or show up or speak up and it makes me unexplainably angry. How as a teenager do i have more empathy and knowledge on a genocide than my history teachers? Than my entire grown ass family?? 

Last night i watched a favorite movie and filled out color samples for the huge pack of markers my parents got me, and the whole time in the back of my mind were all those people, my last thoughts before i tried to go to sleep were about my beautiful wife and how much i wished that orange son of a gun wasn't in office. Its just such an odd thing to be so aware yet somehow feel so blissful at the same time, how is it fair that i get to go about my life as normal despite every law being put in place to ruin my life as a trans kid, despite people in my own town being taken away by ICE, despite children starving to death in Gaza? And i am aware that i was always raised in such a way where my feelings were always brought up in relation to something or someone else and that this feeling is that bubbling up again, but this time there is a truth to it. It helps to know that the moment i can, i will be the loudest man in my family, i will escape this echo-chamber of a town and surround myself with people with empathy and heart and a voice. And for now thats all i've got, because even if i am once voice, i am one of thousands if not millions out there, and i am not alone. 

Totally unrelated note, does anyone like V for Vendetta, i think we should plan something on a particular 5th of November!!