is my crush flirting or fucking with me? (nsfw kinda)

(THIS POST WAS A BULLETIN BUT ITS KINDA LONG SO I THOUGHT ID MAKE IT A BLOG TOO)

so like today i went to school and after the events of the previous bulletin about my crush T i couldnt stop daydreaming about him all weekend >u< like i just imagine giving him a note about how i like him and stuff and him coming in and kissing me all cute while i grasp onto his back or onto his chest or something >^< 

ive never had my first kiss so this would be like a dream come true!!!!! 

anyway, today i came in with a really cute jumper and shorts. i kept fucking up my words around T cuz i was getting nervous i guess. 
so later that day i was sitting out there for lunch with..jimmy (the biggest weirdo in my class). not that i wanted to, T was there and i wanted to sit near him.

T really likes making wild ass jokes, especially gay ones. even though hes stated that he isnt gay. Uhm… he kind of randomly said 
“hey percy, you’ll be my little femboy wont you?” 
“huh?????”
“you would be my femboy, right?” 
“i dont know!!! yes??????? what are you asking me????” 
he laughed and asked why i got so nervous and then moved the conversation.

 then he asked me something really fucking insane “hey percy how many inches does it take to top?” WHAT WHAT DOES THAT MEAN? okay no genuinely like i uh im so clueless and im also literally 15 years old so i replied “HUH?” 

and he repeats the question and im still confused so he says 

 “you know how intercourse works, right?”

 “yea..” 

“and you know how gay sex works, right?” 

“… yeah…” (slight lie)

 “so you know what this means right??” 

 “…” 

 i didnt say no but seriously like, i didnt know LMAO. 

and then he asks something equally terrifying but at the very least i understood it
“how many inches is good?” or something like that. 

me, the 15 year old virgin gets really flustered and confused and i say “well i dont know!!! ive never done anything!” and he asks again. and i say that i dont know man. then he turns to jimmy, the fucking psycho who had actively told us how much sex hes had before and that he's been paid to have sex with someone before. hes all like "what do YOU think then?" and he didnt exactly say anything i remember that related to the question, but said that hes probably had sex with his partner over 200 times. (reminder we are all 15/16)

then t is like "hey if he can get a partner then we have to get one at some point, right?" and then says something like "ill stop making jokes like this when you get a boyfriend lol." and i kinda forget how the convo jumps from that to that but somehow the implication turns to the joke of us dating and being together. i get embarrassed and because this isnt the first time this has happened (one time he put his head on my thigh and some kids in the class joked we were dating)

uh and then he for some reason said something to jimmy about how he should draw commission art of us FUCKING. and said "make him a bottom." i freak tf out and probably start blushing big time cuz like holllyyyyyy FUCK. then he describes it more and says something about me being naked and i swear i cant remember exactly what he said but he said something along the lines of "what if you were naked?".  and i laugh at all this and dig my face into my hands and jimmy is all like "ohh stop T your making them blush" mockingly. So to not let myself seem like i was too into him i go along with it and say "awww stop it" in a also mocking way. 

then T says something that kinds stops me in my tracks and he says "i like making you blush, its funny."

and i seriously dont know if he was joking. but if he isnt, WHICH AT THIS POINT I SERIOUSLY DONT THINK HES JOKING, then he knows that the things he says makes me flustered and he wants to do it more?? but if hes straight then wtf is he doing?? im so fucking confused, and what he says next doesnt make it any better. 

lunch ended so we headed back to the classroom door. he says "you know out of anyone here youd probably be the one to go to the teacher to tell us to stop telling you crap like that" i say no i dont mind, still kind of flustered. if im being real even if he wasnt my crush im not really agaisnt vulgar sex humor (im an oneyplays and meatcanyon fan for fucksakes). he says something along the lines of "so whats your limit then man?? me touching you?" my face lights up like a christmas tree probably. and i stare at the floor and kind of dont say anything but my mind is like NO THATS NOT THE LIMIT ACTUALLY! I MIGHT ACTUALLY WANT YOU TO DO THAT

then he "percy, look at me." which sent flashbacks down my spine of the whole cooking incident where he repeatly asked me that over and over making me flustered af

I look up and attempted to look at his face. and from what i remembered he said "what would you think of that?"

then we go into class and that whole ordeal is over. 

so i know that whole thing sounds fucking insane. and very wattpaddy. like what is everyone gonna clap and barack obama walks in? but no, i really couldnt make this up if i tried. i dont know how to write romance lmao. 

but if i think of every weird incident between us has been around... 5 times. with occasional weird flirting between. so whatever that means. anyway i hope one day we make out for realsies XPPP