Last Goodbye

It's been long enough that I can say this, but unfortunately us two are intrinsically connected. There are tense moments of synchronization and hypocrisy that drive me a bit confused. Is it all a coincidence or is it the result of mutual dissatisfaction? I'd be lying if I said I wasn't hoping for that; in my mind I like to think I mattered and the passing of time we shared was meaningful. That the environment was unbefitting for a relationship and had I been in a different state of mind, could've built a meaningful affinity. 

I've done the best I could do hold on to old things I thought were nice but I ended up getting left behind, to the point I feel my life choices for the past year have collected on me like a fine layer of dust. While I sat here envying others from afar, I came to understand my perceived failures as a result of neglect. I think now, I am content with where I am. Exaggeration is prone to those who fall to irrational thought patterns, "I want someone to believe me!" Since then I have been trying my best to revive the girl that that I let die when everyone in my life threw me aside (so I felt).

As I clung to the possibility of reuniting in my dreams, eventually, it was just that face and those soft eyes; all whom I didn't know at all.